Thursday, February 18, 2010
Friday, October 16, 2009
One of Those Senti Days
Quite often I find myself looking back at the past, both recent and distant, and feeling that things generally look better in retrospect.
Not to say that the present state of affairs in my life aren't desirable. Nothing's really wrong with what's here and now, just...different? And yet... familiar, I suppose, in the sense that it's not totally foreign territory. I have, after all, been through similar incarnations of this stage. Perhaps the cyclical nature is what is prompting this inquiry.
I suppose it is human nature to wonder and imagine. Maybe my imagination is just a little more untamed than others. Either that or I keep letting it run away with me. But despite all the images that my mind conjures, I am comforted by deja vu, and pretty certain, at least up to this point, that this is where I ought to be.
Thursday, September 10, 2009
No to WeetBix, Yes to Conchords

In light of my recent admiration for Kiwi Zoe Bell, I decided to try yet another completely-from-New-Zealand product, called WeetBix. It appeared to be a healthy and affordable alternative to cereal, and since the packaging looked pretty promising, I purchased a box. I took one bite...and spat it back out. Maybe I should have bought some fruit to go with it.
But while WeetBix have failed to sustain my Kiwi-love, Flight of the Conchords renews it with a quick re-listening of Foux Da Fa Fa on imeem and a click towards their website at http://www.conchords.co.nz/, which is unassumingly funny and froufroufree. Check out the Foux Da Fa Fa video here: http://66.160.141.45/videos/bb/flight_of_the_conchords_foux_da_fa_fa.mov and find more video clips from their HBO show at http://www.hboasia.com/fotc.
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Because of Quentin Tarantino's Death Proof...
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Sa Nalalapit na Pagtatapos ng The Wedding...
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Four Days to Go
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
It's Been A While, And Yet...
I remember how frustrating it was to be working on pre-production for a show for over a year. I celebrated my second year anniversary of working on that same show last March.
It's gotten so I don't think I really care anymore. It's all very "so what?" and "now what?" for me, especially work and career-wise.
And so I entertain myself by listening to Fiona Apple on imeem.com. That woman has an amazing voice. The kind I wish I had. And there's something particularly soothing about listening to the pounded-out piano and deep, deep bass riffs with over-ear headphones (thank you Tabby for lending them to me, unbeknownst to you).
I didn't know that Pharell did a Criminal remix, very not bad to my ears. I love that song.
Thursday, September 25, 2008
2:12 p.m. on a Thursday
Ever since I was little, it was very clear to me how my life would go: do well in school, proceed to the next grade. Do well in grade school, proceed to high school. Make good in high school, get into a good college. Do well in college, land a great job and live happily ever after. Simple.
Two decades later. I did well in school, got into the only college that was ever really an option, serendipitously landed a job at the company of my dreams, and...now what? Apparently, not quite as cut and dried as I thought it would be.
What happens when the dream you thought you always wanted turns up to be not quite what you expected? Do you hold on to the idea of what you think it ought to be or give up on it, in the hopes of finding a new dream?
There probably aren't any right or wrong answers here. We each pave our own paths, take our steps, choose our choices. I suppose, ultimately, the fear of judgement, rejection or failure goes conveniently hand in hand with the lethargy of one that ignores persistent little nudges that edge you out of your comfort zone.
And so I remain, exactly where I am, as I am, tossed around by waves of events and dragged by a current of circumstances, all the while managing to keep my head above water, and the faintest sliver of hope afloat.
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Neurotic Thursday
***
I just got back from performance assessment with my boss. I must say I am quite relieved. And utterly grateful. And yet the neurotic in me refuses to let me celebrate too long. What of next year's appraisal? What happens when my show finally airs or we start taping and they figure out that I'm not all that after all? The voice in my head keeps insisting that I am not worthy. What a way to quash var-pay joy.
But at least, I'll get to pay off my credit card bill na! Or kahit half man lang. And my pending Globe bills (yeay I'll be able to get my old number back!). I'll buy an electric fan, pay my dad for what I charged to his Visa, maybe get a facial, manies and pedies, a full tank of gas, shopping, groceries... (as if magkakasya lahat! Nangangarap pa ko bumili ng condo at mag-invest sa mutual funds, at bumiyahe's magbakasyon, at paayos ang oto ko, at makapag-ipon. Sheesh.)
Hence the perpetual dilemma: how to survive the demands of the job without slacking and yet making full use of all available time and resources and possibly still finding alternate sources of income to augment current cash flow to maintain standards of living and concurrently have the luxury of a comfortable lifestyle.
What good does thinking do? Sometimes it feels like I just keep turning things around and around in my head and yet I keep seeing the same thing. I need an epiphany. Or a mirror. Or a surgeon. Or LSD.
Thursday, May 08, 2008
My Secret Identity
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Thursday, May 01, 2008
Labor Day Morning
but at least...i get labor day off! or rather, i can work from home, or wherever it is i choose to spend the holiday. hopefully all i'll need to do is make one call to follow up on my script. perhaps i shall do it while getting manies and pedies. or before i go for a dip in the pool. or on my way to the mall. or in the comfort of my very own room whilst i tidy up a bit. there's such comfort in the slow, irregular unraveling of a totally unplanned day.
but first, a good night's sleep.
Friday, April 25, 2008
Friday Night Once More
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last night i was listening to several enchanting tunes from a friend's playlist. it put me in the mood for intellectual sparring, the kind i've often enjoyed with a few close friends, covering every topic under the sun, from the serious, to the insane, and the seriously mundane, without fear of discrimination or rancor, with the passion and gusto of the young, the restless, and the fully self-expressed.
however, i walked to my car, and, having sat down in the driver's seat, i found myself instantly drained of all motivation. tonight, perhaps, shall be different. without the weight of work tomorrow looming over me, perhaps, tonight shall be different.
***
some time ago, i chanced upon an article in a broadsheet, about a wedding anniversary wherein the song of choice was "just the way you are" by billy joel. the lyrics were published in full, and it was the first time i had really read through them (as the song was popularized before my time. i know, it's not an excuse, but still...). i gained a new appreciation for the song, and what i thought it meant. i particularly like the last stanza, which goes "i don't want clever conversation/i never want to work that hard/i just want someone that i can talk to/i want you just the way you are". when i was younger, i took such great pride and joy in the lengthy conversations peppered with witty oneliners and scathing rebuttals (carried over from my high school days on the forensics a.k.a. debate team) that i often engaged in, not realizing how empty a lot of those words were, fueled merely by pomp, proving nothing. the song lyrics remind me that sometimes, less is more, simple doesn't mean typical and even a paper bag being blown by the wind can be poignant (given the proper scoring and cinematography, of course).
now, time for a symposium at my favorite haunt.
Friday, April 04, 2008
birthday wish list
1. falling in love body wash and lotion by philosophy (my supply is running out :p)
2. a mouse pad (for my desk at work, i've been making do with scratch paper, haha)
3. pantene hair fall control shampoo and silky smooth conditioner (wala akong oras pumunta sa grocery)
4. mascara
5. blush brush
6. eyebrow pencil sharpener
7. haircut at tony and jackey
8. a new bikini for the summer!
9. sanuks! a nice, comfy pair for taping
10. dresses, lovely summery ones
11. alice blue candles
12. gym membership
13. time to go to the gym hahaha
14. libreng lipo (for stubborn chubs)
15. bandmates! and gigs!
16. trip to boracay
17. new contact lenses (my disposable ones won't last forever)
18. contact lens solution
19. manies and pedies at the nail loft
20. a facial
21. a new car
22. a 2-bedroom condo
23. a trip abroad
24. wallet
25. wedges that won't kill my feet
26. new chucks (my white ones look kawawa na)
27. skater shoes
28. electric fan for my room
29. full length mirror for my room
30. my room to be magically cleaned and organized (!)
31. a nice big jansport backpack in not-easily dirtied colors
32. kumpletong set ng office supplies (heavy duty puncher and stapler, staple remover, sticky notes, file folders, correction fluid)
33. coffee stash for the office, with sugar, no cream
34. a laptop
35. my old sim back
36. a compilation of all the songs that used to be on our wake-up tape (by disney, circa early '90s?)
sarap mangarap diba. :)
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
holy tuesday
back in high school, i was referred to as the "cram queen", due to my knack for putting off any and all homework and reviewing for tests until the period before that subject. it worked back then, my short-term memory was pretty sharp, and i reasoned that i worked better under pressure which had me produce results that were passable within the least amount of time.
fast forward to today. i have come to realize that some things are better done leisurely over an extended period of time than hurriedly within brief moments of extreme kangaragan. this has absolutely no bearing whatsoever on my dilly-dallying today to read my script and pick up some tapes from the neighboring building - tasks that really wouldn't take very long to execute, but nonetheless the impending holidays have been bearing down on most people and everyone is either in petiks or vacation mood (if not already out of town enjoying well-deserved leaves..!)
***
i sang at stripped two weeks ago! it was my first gig ever and oodles more fun than i could ever have imagined. infinite thanks to everyone who came and showed their support, i really felt the love (munchee and migs, genie girl and chill, kael and louie, nino, kaberks, ate des and nognog, promdate, krista, kayelle, cheson, paul and the tabing ilog gang: penguin, beefy, daddy cox, walds and vin who were in complete attendance). salamat din to jp, eric and the route 196 people for allowing me to exercise my vocal chords, and of course ronnie for backing me up. :) see y'all again in october!
***
i just realized how different it is to write for oneself rather than to be writing with a particular audience in mind...always with a looking good, always wondering, worrying, if they'll find it interesting, what they might say, how they might react. whereas when you blog freely and type at will, wala lang, deadma. verbal diarrhea straight from your brain through your fingertips and virtually immoratlized on a blogpage.
and now it is time for beer. :)
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
Random Monday
Wait, that sounds a bit tiresome. Maybe i'll just post a few random things about today (for no particular reason. kaya nga random, di ba?)
1. I cut my own nails today. Not like i haven't done this before. In fact, I used to do this all the time before i discovered Foot Trip and the benefits of having someone fila and shape your nails for you. (it makes them less prone to chipping and breaking). Anyway, this was done because, well, they were too long, and getting panget, and in the interest of saving money. Yeay.
2. I watched part of the first season on Kyle XY last night til halos morning. Wala lang. Cute naman siya.
3. I had my second voice lesson with my teacher Mios. Kaso i forgot my CDs at home. Oops. Hehehe. I still turn red every time she asks me to sing and I can literally feel my sweat glands go into overdrive.
4. I had a very healthy squash soup for brunch, bony bangus for lunch, chopsuey for dinner, half of an uberly yummy authentic Spanish polvoron from Crissy for dessert and sinful Chinese takeout/leftovers AND a handful of dark chocolate m&ms for my midnight snack. Good going, Justine, that'll really disappear the chubs.
Bah. Tomorrow is still another day. :)
Saturday, November 03, 2007
Sunday, September 30, 2007
tabs and chubs day
today being a saturday, we encountered heavy traffic pretty much all the way from home to trinoma. there was a bit of a ruckus near the house, a man in a pink altis got down from his car, hit a man on a motorbike with his door in his haste, and stomped towards a tricycle driver in front of him, and flashed what i could only presume was a badge of sorts. tabs didn't notice the roadside drama as he was so keen to control django fett on his PSP.
i was all set to watch "shoot 'em up" (ooh clive owen!), but we got confused as to what was showing where, and so when we got to trinoma, we realized that we should have headed for the block instead :p so we got stuck watching "rogue assassin" (because tabs refused to watch "i'm falling for you" and tomorrow is chuck and larry day with mom).
before the movie, we had dinner at five cows, because i wanted to try something new for a change, and tabs wanted to eat in a "real restaurant" where we could sit around for a bit, as opposed to the food court downstairs. i ordered the creamy tomato soup (found it to be more tomato than cream, though not quite as tomato-ey as i like), then tabs and i shared a vongole and quattro formaggio pizza. food was generally ok, though not spectacular (perhaps the ice cream is more their specialty, since they consider themselves as a "restaurant and ice cream bar"...the lemon torte was quite yummy, although perhaps i should have ordered it along with the main course so that the lemon sherbet could have melted a bit, less struggle and more pleasure in the eating. :) tabs' crunchy apple caramel parfait was pretty good too, although i only tried a spoonful). needless to say, tabs and i were pretty full afterwards (antakaw namin e!)
and yet this didn't stop us from consuming a tumbler of buttered popcorn each as we watched the movie, which was, well, simply put...quite bad. too many loopholes in the storytelling, plus a lot of the action scenes lost their punch because they had to cut some frames out for the r-13 rating. nakatulog pa yung operator twice malapit sa dulo ng sine. buti nalang good mood ang mga tao, tawanan lang sa sinehan.
so, andami ko nanamang nagastos today (made a couple of purchases pa sa chocolate, weeheehee), pero happy naman. :D
Monday, July 23, 2007
As an afterthought...
No wait, given the ratio of women to men that's probably not a fair deduction to make.
I guess there are more men who are like me compared to men who aren't like me than there are women like me compared to women who aren't like me.
Confused yet? :) kewl.
Wow, so there are 23,999,999 others out there just like me!
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