Wednesday, April 18, 2007

drama

i really don't know why i enjoy torturing myself so much.

just when i'm beginning to have fun and enjoy life a little, i seem to crave a bit of suffering. it is too unbelievable that my life could actually be happy and conflict-free?

or perhaps i feel the urge to remind myself of existing conflict so as not to lose myself to bliss too soon. once you let go completely, lord knows it's almost impossible to get yourself back.

ok, maybe impossible is too dramatic. very difficult, and very, very painful, maybe. but certainly not impossible.

still, who'd want to go through all of that again?

i'm not that much of a masochist.

Sunday, April 01, 2007

ano kaya'ng meron sa number four

again, ninenuk ko kay tatat.

FOUR JOBS I HAVE HAD
1. stock market monitor-er
2. production assistant
3. segment producer
4. associate producer

FOUR MOVIES I HAVE WATCHED OVER AND OVER
1. miss congeniality
2. little giants
3. school of rock
4. true lies

FOUR PLACES I HAVE LIVED:
1. malingap street, teacher's village
2. dona candida cmpd., caloocan city
3. abs-cbn (well, practically)
4. my dad's office

FOUR TV SHOWS I LIKE TO WATCH:
1. CSI
2. the office
3. south park
4. family guy

FOUR PLACES I HAVE BEEN ON VACATION:
1. boracay
2. barcelona, spain
3. sydney/melbourne/gold coast/brisbane, australia
4. bangkok, thailand

FOUR OF MY FAVORITE FOODS:
1. chocolate!!!
2. margherita pizza from sicilian
3. three cheese panini from deck deli
4. hash browns

i know four lang dapat, but i couldn't resist the urge to fantasize about food...

5. lemony stuff - lemon squares, lemon chicken, fish with lemon butter sauce...
6. sinigang (yung nuknukan ng asim)
7. tomatoes, in almost any way, shape or form
8. barbecue with rice and laing
9. isaw!
10. puto't dinuguan
11. french onion soup
12. lamb with mint jelly
13. ...ginugutom ko lang ata sarili ko...

FOUR PLACES I WOULD RATHER BE RIGHT NOW:
1. in bed, asleep...but not really
2. boracay! ilang araw nalang..!
3. out gimiking
4. somewhere na walang lamok

FOUR PEOPLE WHO WILL ANSWER THIS MEME
1. wala ata

a 1, a 4, a 6

hay salamat, gumana din..!

akala ko mabubwiset nalang ako kasi hindi ako makapag-post sa bibihirang oras na nasa mood ako na magparamdam. internet explorer lang pala ang kelangan.

kinupit ko 'to sa blog ni deepa. ewan ko kung weird lang ako, pero parang salungat yung unang part sa pangalawang part. at sobrang hindi ata akma yung huling part. ako, "in the center of a successful domestic unit"? "crave the devotion of offspring"?? "fostering the perfect family in a perfect home"??! ewan ko lang ha.

although my dad says, "always look out for number 1." (meaning me). so i guess tama siya dun. :)

anyway.

You entered: Justine Ann Francisco Javier

There are 25 letters in your name.
Those 25 letters total to 109
There are 10 vowels and 15 consonants in your name.

What your first name means:
Latin Female Feminine form of Justin: Just. Righteous. Fair.
English Female Just; upright. Feminine of Justin.

Your number is: 1

The characteristics of #1 are: Initiating action, pioneering, leading, independent, attaining, individual.

The expression or destiny for #1:
A number 1 Expression denotes the skilled executive with keen administrative capabilities. You must develop the capacity to be a fine leader, sales executive, or promoter. You have the tools to become an original person with a creative approach to problem solving, and a penchant for initiating action. Someone may have to follow behind you to handle the details, but you know how to get things going and make things happen. You have a good mind and the ability to use it for your advancement. Because of these factors, you have much potential for achievement and financial rewards. Frequently, this expression belongs to one running a business or striving to achieve a level of accomplishment on ones talents and efforts. You have little need for much supervision, preferring to act on your own with little restraint. You are both ambitious and determined. Self-confident and self-reliant must be yours, as you develop a strong unyielding will and the courage of your convictions.

Although you fear loneliness, you want to be left alone. You fear routine and being in a rut. You often jump the gun because you are afraid of being left behind.

The negative attributes of the 1 Expression are egotism and a self-centered approach to life. This is an aggressive number and if it is over-emphasized it is very hard to live with. You do not have to be overly aggressive to fulfill your destiny. The 1 has a natural instinct to dominate and to be the boss; adhering to the concept of being number One. Again, you do not have to dominate and destroy in order to lead and manage.

Your Soul Urge number is: 4

A Soul Urge number of 4 means:
With the Soul Urge or Motivation number of 4 you are likely to strive for a stable life. You tend to follow a rather orderly pattern and systematic approach in your endeavors. You have an inner desire to serve others in a methodical and diligent manner. You want to be in solid, conventional, and well-regulated activities, and you are somewhat disturbed by innovation and erratic or sudden changes. Excellent at organizing, systematizing, and managing, you have a way of establishing order and maintaining it. You are responsible, reliable and in the final analysis, practical. Highly analytical, you can see your way through all sorts of situations and generally have a clear understanding of the issues. You are a very honest, sincere, and conscientious individual.

The negative side of the 4 is rigid, stubborn and somewhat narrow-minded. There is a tendency to hide feelings, or to really not be aware of real feelings. Avoid being too rigid and stubborn in your thinking, and try to always see the big picture rather than becoming to involved with the detail. Don't be afraid to take a chance once in awhile.

Your Inner Dream number is: 6

An Inner Dream number of 6 means: You dream of guiding and fostering the perfect family in the perfect home. You crave the devotion from offspring and a loving spouse. You picture yourself in the center of a successful domestic unit.