As I sat in my office cubicle, randomly surfing the net, I heard an acoustic version of "With You" being played nearby. I stood up to find the source of the music. A neighbor was playing a clip from youtube. I thought it was Sam Milby. Turned out to be an unknown Caucasian dude. Sounded pretty good.
***
I just got back from performance assessment with my boss. I must say I am quite relieved. And utterly grateful. And yet the neurotic in me refuses to let me celebrate too long. What of next year's appraisal? What happens when my show finally airs or we start taping and they figure out that I'm not all that after all? The voice in my head keeps insisting that I am not worthy. What a way to quash var-pay joy.
But at least, I'll get to pay off my credit card bill na! Or kahit half man lang. And my pending Globe bills (yeay I'll be able to get my old number back!). I'll buy an electric fan, pay my dad for what I charged to his Visa, maybe get a facial, manies and pedies, a full tank of gas, shopping, groceries... (as if magkakasya lahat! Nangangarap pa ko bumili ng condo at mag-invest sa mutual funds, at bumiyahe's magbakasyon, at paayos ang oto ko, at makapag-ipon. Sheesh.)
Hence the perpetual dilemma: how to survive the demands of the job without slacking and yet making full use of all available time and resources and possibly still finding alternate sources of income to augment current cash flow to maintain standards of living and concurrently have the luxury of a comfortable lifestyle.
What good does thinking do? Sometimes it feels like I just keep turning things around and around in my head and yet I keep seeing the same thing. I need an epiphany. Or a mirror. Or a surgeon. Or LSD.
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Thursday, May 08, 2008
My Secret Identity
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Thursday, May 01, 2008
Labor Day Morning
i was considering blogging about work concerns, since it is labor day and all, but it is 5:17 am and i am giving in to the tiredness borne from working straight from 2:30 pm til past one in the morning. for some reason even just a couple of hours past my required eight weigh extra heavily on my shoulders...literally. it sits, irremovable, between the blades of my back, in a spot that i am unable to reach to massage myself with equally weary hands.
but at least...i get labor day off! or rather, i can work from home, or wherever it is i choose to spend the holiday. hopefully all i'll need to do is make one call to follow up on my script. perhaps i shall do it while getting manies and pedies. or before i go for a dip in the pool. or on my way to the mall. or in the comfort of my very own room whilst i tidy up a bit. there's such comfort in the slow, irregular unraveling of a totally unplanned day.
but first, a good night's sleep.
but at least...i get labor day off! or rather, i can work from home, or wherever it is i choose to spend the holiday. hopefully all i'll need to do is make one call to follow up on my script. perhaps i shall do it while getting manies and pedies. or before i go for a dip in the pool. or on my way to the mall. or in the comfort of my very own room whilst i tidy up a bit. there's such comfort in the slow, irregular unraveling of a totally unplanned day.
but first, a good night's sleep.
Friday, April 25, 2008
Friday Night Once More
i'm done serving the eight obligatory hours to my television network master. i can now clock out and freely exit the guarded glass doors to enjoy a night out on the town with equally world-weary friends. and yet, like many other friday nights before, i find myself lingering in my office cubicle, compelled to make full use of the available internet and relative quiet in an otherwise busy, bustling environment.
***
last night i was listening to several enchanting tunes from a friend's playlist. it put me in the mood for intellectual sparring, the kind i've often enjoyed with a few close friends, covering every topic under the sun, from the serious, to the insane, and the seriously mundane, without fear of discrimination or rancor, with the passion and gusto of the young, the restless, and the fully self-expressed.
however, i walked to my car, and, having sat down in the driver's seat, i found myself instantly drained of all motivation. tonight, perhaps, shall be different. without the weight of work tomorrow looming over me, perhaps, tonight shall be different.
***
some time ago, i chanced upon an article in a broadsheet, about a wedding anniversary wherein the song of choice was "just the way you are" by billy joel. the lyrics were published in full, and it was the first time i had really read through them (as the song was popularized before my time. i know, it's not an excuse, but still...). i gained a new appreciation for the song, and what i thought it meant. i particularly like the last stanza, which goes "i don't want clever conversation/i never want to work that hard/i just want someone that i can talk to/i want you just the way you are". when i was younger, i took such great pride and joy in the lengthy conversations peppered with witty oneliners and scathing rebuttals (carried over from my high school days on the forensics a.k.a. debate team) that i often engaged in, not realizing how empty a lot of those words were, fueled merely by pomp, proving nothing. the song lyrics remind me that sometimes, less is more, simple doesn't mean typical and even a paper bag being blown by the wind can be poignant (given the proper scoring and cinematography, of course).
now, time for a symposium at my favorite haunt.
***
last night i was listening to several enchanting tunes from a friend's playlist. it put me in the mood for intellectual sparring, the kind i've often enjoyed with a few close friends, covering every topic under the sun, from the serious, to the insane, and the seriously mundane, without fear of discrimination or rancor, with the passion and gusto of the young, the restless, and the fully self-expressed.
however, i walked to my car, and, having sat down in the driver's seat, i found myself instantly drained of all motivation. tonight, perhaps, shall be different. without the weight of work tomorrow looming over me, perhaps, tonight shall be different.
***
some time ago, i chanced upon an article in a broadsheet, about a wedding anniversary wherein the song of choice was "just the way you are" by billy joel. the lyrics were published in full, and it was the first time i had really read through them (as the song was popularized before my time. i know, it's not an excuse, but still...). i gained a new appreciation for the song, and what i thought it meant. i particularly like the last stanza, which goes "i don't want clever conversation/i never want to work that hard/i just want someone that i can talk to/i want you just the way you are". when i was younger, i took such great pride and joy in the lengthy conversations peppered with witty oneliners and scathing rebuttals (carried over from my high school days on the forensics a.k.a. debate team) that i often engaged in, not realizing how empty a lot of those words were, fueled merely by pomp, proving nothing. the song lyrics remind me that sometimes, less is more, simple doesn't mean typical and even a paper bag being blown by the wind can be poignant (given the proper scoring and cinematography, of course).
now, time for a symposium at my favorite haunt.
Friday, April 04, 2008
birthday wish list
my birthday's coming up, yeay! i must say i'm pretty content with everything i have, and how my life is going in general. of course, this isn't to say i'm not without wants (i am, after all, only human). and so, as i am petiksing on a friday night, waiting for my wingman to finish taping so that we can go off and watch my brother's gig, i'm putting together a list of wants:
1. falling in love body wash and lotion by philosophy (my supply is running out :p)
2. a mouse pad (for my desk at work, i've been making do with scratch paper, haha)
3. pantene hair fall control shampoo and silky smooth conditioner (wala akong oras pumunta sa grocery)
4. mascara
5. blush brush
6. eyebrow pencil sharpener
7. haircut at tony and jackey
8. a new bikini for the summer!
9. sanuks! a nice, comfy pair for taping
10. dresses, lovely summery ones
11. alice blue candles
12. gym membership
13. time to go to the gym hahaha
14. libreng lipo (for stubborn chubs)
15. bandmates! and gigs!
16. trip to boracay
17. new contact lenses (my disposable ones won't last forever)
18. contact lens solution
19. manies and pedies at the nail loft
20. a facial
21. a new car
22. a 2-bedroom condo
23. a trip abroad
24. wallet
25. wedges that won't kill my feet
26. new chucks (my white ones look kawawa na)
27. skater shoes
28. electric fan for my room
29. full length mirror for my room
30. my room to be magically cleaned and organized (!)
31. a nice big jansport backpack in not-easily dirtied colors
32. kumpletong set ng office supplies (heavy duty puncher and stapler, staple remover, sticky notes, file folders, correction fluid)
33. coffee stash for the office, with sugar, no cream
34. a laptop
35. my old sim back
36. a compilation of all the songs that used to be on our wake-up tape (by disney, circa early '90s?)
sarap mangarap diba. :)
1. falling in love body wash and lotion by philosophy (my supply is running out :p)
2. a mouse pad (for my desk at work, i've been making do with scratch paper, haha)
3. pantene hair fall control shampoo and silky smooth conditioner (wala akong oras pumunta sa grocery)
4. mascara
5. blush brush
6. eyebrow pencil sharpener
7. haircut at tony and jackey
8. a new bikini for the summer!
9. sanuks! a nice, comfy pair for taping
10. dresses, lovely summery ones
11. alice blue candles
12. gym membership
13. time to go to the gym hahaha
14. libreng lipo (for stubborn chubs)
15. bandmates! and gigs!
16. trip to boracay
17. new contact lenses (my disposable ones won't last forever)
18. contact lens solution
19. manies and pedies at the nail loft
20. a facial
21. a new car
22. a 2-bedroom condo
23. a trip abroad
24. wallet
25. wedges that won't kill my feet
26. new chucks (my white ones look kawawa na)
27. skater shoes
28. electric fan for my room
29. full length mirror for my room
30. my room to be magically cleaned and organized (!)
31. a nice big jansport backpack in not-easily dirtied colors
32. kumpletong set ng office supplies (heavy duty puncher and stapler, staple remover, sticky notes, file folders, correction fluid)
33. coffee stash for the office, with sugar, no cream
34. a laptop
35. my old sim back
36. a compilation of all the songs that used to be on our wake-up tape (by disney, circa early '90s?)
sarap mangarap diba. :)
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
holy tuesday
why is it that i enjoy putting things off until the last possible minute?
back in high school, i was referred to as the "cram queen", due to my knack for putting off any and all homework and reviewing for tests until the period before that subject. it worked back then, my short-term memory was pretty sharp, and i reasoned that i worked better under pressure which had me produce results that were passable within the least amount of time.
fast forward to today. i have come to realize that some things are better done leisurely over an extended period of time than hurriedly within brief moments of extreme kangaragan. this has absolutely no bearing whatsoever on my dilly-dallying today to read my script and pick up some tapes from the neighboring building - tasks that really wouldn't take very long to execute, but nonetheless the impending holidays have been bearing down on most people and everyone is either in petiks or vacation mood (if not already out of town enjoying well-deserved leaves..!)
***
i sang at stripped two weeks ago! it was my first gig ever and oodles more fun than i could ever have imagined. infinite thanks to everyone who came and showed their support, i really felt the love (munchee and migs, genie girl and chill, kael and louie, nino, kaberks, ate des and nognog, promdate, krista, kayelle, cheson, paul and the tabing ilog gang: penguin, beefy, daddy cox, walds and vin who were in complete attendance). salamat din to jp, eric and the route 196 people for allowing me to exercise my vocal chords, and of course ronnie for backing me up. :) see y'all again in october!
***
i just realized how different it is to write for oneself rather than to be writing with a particular audience in mind...always with a looking good, always wondering, worrying, if they'll find it interesting, what they might say, how they might react. whereas when you blog freely and type at will, wala lang, deadma. verbal diarrhea straight from your brain through your fingertips and virtually immoratlized on a blogpage.
and now it is time for beer. :)
back in high school, i was referred to as the "cram queen", due to my knack for putting off any and all homework and reviewing for tests until the period before that subject. it worked back then, my short-term memory was pretty sharp, and i reasoned that i worked better under pressure which had me produce results that were passable within the least amount of time.
fast forward to today. i have come to realize that some things are better done leisurely over an extended period of time than hurriedly within brief moments of extreme kangaragan. this has absolutely no bearing whatsoever on my dilly-dallying today to read my script and pick up some tapes from the neighboring building - tasks that really wouldn't take very long to execute, but nonetheless the impending holidays have been bearing down on most people and everyone is either in petiks or vacation mood (if not already out of town enjoying well-deserved leaves..!)
***
i sang at stripped two weeks ago! it was my first gig ever and oodles more fun than i could ever have imagined. infinite thanks to everyone who came and showed their support, i really felt the love (munchee and migs, genie girl and chill, kael and louie, nino, kaberks, ate des and nognog, promdate, krista, kayelle, cheson, paul and the tabing ilog gang: penguin, beefy, daddy cox, walds and vin who were in complete attendance). salamat din to jp, eric and the route 196 people for allowing me to exercise my vocal chords, and of course ronnie for backing me up. :) see y'all again in october!
***
i just realized how different it is to write for oneself rather than to be writing with a particular audience in mind...always with a looking good, always wondering, worrying, if they'll find it interesting, what they might say, how they might react. whereas when you blog freely and type at will, wala lang, deadma. verbal diarrhea straight from your brain through your fingertips and virtually immoratlized on a blogpage.
and now it is time for beer. :)
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
Random Monday
Since today is the third of December...no wait, it's technically the fourth...oh well whatever. Since it's been almost exactly a month since my last post, i shall update the whole wide world on several things that have been going on in my life.
Wait, that sounds a bit tiresome. Maybe i'll just post a few random things about today (for no particular reason. kaya nga random, di ba?)
1. I cut my own nails today. Not like i haven't done this before. In fact, I used to do this all the time before i discovered Foot Trip and the benefits of having someone fila and shape your nails for you. (it makes them less prone to chipping and breaking). Anyway, this was done because, well, they were too long, and getting panget, and in the interest of saving money. Yeay.
2. I watched part of the first season on Kyle XY last night til halos morning. Wala lang. Cute naman siya.
3. I had my second voice lesson with my teacher Mios. Kaso i forgot my CDs at home. Oops. Hehehe. I still turn red every time she asks me to sing and I can literally feel my sweat glands go into overdrive.
4. I had a very healthy squash soup for brunch, bony bangus for lunch, chopsuey for dinner, half of an uberly yummy authentic Spanish polvoron from Crissy for dessert and sinful Chinese takeout/leftovers AND a handful of dark chocolate m&ms for my midnight snack. Good going, Justine, that'll really disappear the chubs.
Bah. Tomorrow is still another day. :)
Wait, that sounds a bit tiresome. Maybe i'll just post a few random things about today (for no particular reason. kaya nga random, di ba?)
1. I cut my own nails today. Not like i haven't done this before. In fact, I used to do this all the time before i discovered Foot Trip and the benefits of having someone fila and shape your nails for you. (it makes them less prone to chipping and breaking). Anyway, this was done because, well, they were too long, and getting panget, and in the interest of saving money. Yeay.
2. I watched part of the first season on Kyle XY last night til halos morning. Wala lang. Cute naman siya.
3. I had my second voice lesson with my teacher Mios. Kaso i forgot my CDs at home. Oops. Hehehe. I still turn red every time she asks me to sing and I can literally feel my sweat glands go into overdrive.
4. I had a very healthy squash soup for brunch, bony bangus for lunch, chopsuey for dinner, half of an uberly yummy authentic Spanish polvoron from Crissy for dessert and sinful Chinese takeout/leftovers AND a handful of dark chocolate m&ms for my midnight snack. Good going, Justine, that'll really disappear the chubs.
Bah. Tomorrow is still another day. :)
Saturday, November 03, 2007
Sunday, September 30, 2007
tabs and chubs day
today i went out with my brother to catch dinner and a movie.
today being a saturday, we encountered heavy traffic pretty much all the way from home to trinoma. there was a bit of a ruckus near the house, a man in a pink altis got down from his car, hit a man on a motorbike with his door in his haste, and stomped towards a tricycle driver in front of him, and flashed what i could only presume was a badge of sorts. tabs didn't notice the roadside drama as he was so keen to control django fett on his PSP.
i was all set to watch "shoot 'em up" (ooh clive owen!), but we got confused as to what was showing where, and so when we got to trinoma, we realized that we should have headed for the block instead :p so we got stuck watching "rogue assassin" (because tabs refused to watch "i'm falling for you" and tomorrow is chuck and larry day with mom).
before the movie, we had dinner at five cows, because i wanted to try something new for a change, and tabs wanted to eat in a "real restaurant" where we could sit around for a bit, as opposed to the food court downstairs. i ordered the creamy tomato soup (found it to be more tomato than cream, though not quite as tomato-ey as i like), then tabs and i shared a vongole and quattro formaggio pizza. food was generally ok, though not spectacular (perhaps the ice cream is more their specialty, since they consider themselves as a "restaurant and ice cream bar"...the lemon torte was quite yummy, although perhaps i should have ordered it along with the main course so that the lemon sherbet could have melted a bit, less struggle and more pleasure in the eating. :) tabs' crunchy apple caramel parfait was pretty good too, although i only tried a spoonful). needless to say, tabs and i were pretty full afterwards (antakaw namin e!)
and yet this didn't stop us from consuming a tumbler of buttered popcorn each as we watched the movie, which was, well, simply put...quite bad. too many loopholes in the storytelling, plus a lot of the action scenes lost their punch because they had to cut some frames out for the r-13 rating. nakatulog pa yung operator twice malapit sa dulo ng sine. buti nalang good mood ang mga tao, tawanan lang sa sinehan.
so, andami ko nanamang nagastos today (made a couple of purchases pa sa chocolate, weeheehee), pero happy naman. :D
today being a saturday, we encountered heavy traffic pretty much all the way from home to trinoma. there was a bit of a ruckus near the house, a man in a pink altis got down from his car, hit a man on a motorbike with his door in his haste, and stomped towards a tricycle driver in front of him, and flashed what i could only presume was a badge of sorts. tabs didn't notice the roadside drama as he was so keen to control django fett on his PSP.
i was all set to watch "shoot 'em up" (ooh clive owen!), but we got confused as to what was showing where, and so when we got to trinoma, we realized that we should have headed for the block instead :p so we got stuck watching "rogue assassin" (because tabs refused to watch "i'm falling for you" and tomorrow is chuck and larry day with mom).
before the movie, we had dinner at five cows, because i wanted to try something new for a change, and tabs wanted to eat in a "real restaurant" where we could sit around for a bit, as opposed to the food court downstairs. i ordered the creamy tomato soup (found it to be more tomato than cream, though not quite as tomato-ey as i like), then tabs and i shared a vongole and quattro formaggio pizza. food was generally ok, though not spectacular (perhaps the ice cream is more their specialty, since they consider themselves as a "restaurant and ice cream bar"...the lemon torte was quite yummy, although perhaps i should have ordered it along with the main course so that the lemon sherbet could have melted a bit, less struggle and more pleasure in the eating. :) tabs' crunchy apple caramel parfait was pretty good too, although i only tried a spoonful). needless to say, tabs and i were pretty full afterwards (antakaw namin e!)
and yet this didn't stop us from consuming a tumbler of buttered popcorn each as we watched the movie, which was, well, simply put...quite bad. too many loopholes in the storytelling, plus a lot of the action scenes lost their punch because they had to cut some frames out for the r-13 rating. nakatulog pa yung operator twice malapit sa dulo ng sine. buti nalang good mood ang mga tao, tawanan lang sa sinehan.
so, andami ko nanamang nagastos today (made a couple of purchases pa sa chocolate, weeheehee), pero happy naman. :D
Monday, July 23, 2007
As an afterthought...
...so there are actually more men out there like me than there are women???
No wait, given the ratio of women to men that's probably not a fair deduction to make.
I guess there are more men who are like me compared to men who aren't like me than there are women like me compared to women who aren't like me.
Confused yet? :) kewl.
No wait, given the ratio of women to men that's probably not a fair deduction to make.
I guess there are more men who are like me compared to men who aren't like me than there are women like me compared to women who aren't like me.
Confused yet? :) kewl.
Wow, so there are 23,999,999 others out there just like me!
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Friday, July 06, 2007
Tamad
Tinatamad ako ngayon. Tamad mag-isip. Tamad magsulat ng maayos. Tamad matulog. Tamad tumayo. Tamad lang. Tamad na tamad.
Pero ang daming pwedeng isipin. Ang daming kelangang isipin. Daming kelangan harapin. Daming kanegahan na ayaw pansinin kasi labag na sa relihiyon ko ngayon ang maging nega.
Nakakagulat at nakapagtataka, ang daming nagsabing galit daw ako. I never thought I projected anger. Not consciously anyway.
Mabuti pa nga siguro kung galit ako. Mas madali pa nga yun e. Pag galit ka, galit ka lang. Yun lang nakikita at nararamdaman mo. There isn't much room for anything else.
Kesa naman lumulutang ka sa kawalan. Di ka na nga present, powerless ka pa. Double dead ka na nun.
Pero siguro minsan mas gugustuhin mo nalang madeds kesa makaramdam ng kahit ano.
Ang nega diba? At ang bigat. Kaya ayoko tong ipost sa multiply e. Masisira image ko. Bwahahaha. Courage and creativity daw. Mapagpanggap. Mapagkunwari. Pakatotoo ka nga.
Pero ang daming pwedeng isipin. Ang daming kelangang isipin. Daming kelangan harapin. Daming kanegahan na ayaw pansinin kasi labag na sa relihiyon ko ngayon ang maging nega.
Nakakagulat at nakapagtataka, ang daming nagsabing galit daw ako. I never thought I projected anger. Not consciously anyway.
Mabuti pa nga siguro kung galit ako. Mas madali pa nga yun e. Pag galit ka, galit ka lang. Yun lang nakikita at nararamdaman mo. There isn't much room for anything else.
Kesa naman lumulutang ka sa kawalan. Di ka na nga present, powerless ka pa. Double dead ka na nun.
Pero siguro minsan mas gugustuhin mo nalang madeds kesa makaramdam ng kahit ano.
Ang nega diba? At ang bigat. Kaya ayoko tong ipost sa multiply e. Masisira image ko. Bwahahaha. Courage and creativity daw. Mapagpanggap. Mapagkunwari. Pakatotoo ka nga.
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
Pamamaalam
Simula’t sapul, alam ko na. Panandalian lang siyang magiging akin. Pahiram lamang ng panahon. Patikim lamang ng tadhana.
Nangapa ako sa simula. Minsang nagkamali. Ilang ulit ko siyang nasaktan ng hindi sinasadya, pero dali-dali naman akong bumawi, at bilang ganti, ni minsan ay hindi niya ako hinayaang masaktan.
Madalas kaming maglakbay at gumala. Kung saan-saan napapadpad. Minsan na ring naligaw, subalit lagi namang nakababalik sa tamang daan at nakakarating sa paroroonan.
Marami na rin kaming nakilala’t naging kaibigan, na nakilala kami’t nakasama namin ng matagal.
Subalit ang tunay na magkaakibat ay ako at siya. Sa araw-araw naming pagkikita, pakiramdam ko’y walang hirap o pagsubok na iindahin, basta’t kami ang magkasama.
Makalipas ang ilang taon ng masaya at matiwasay na pagsasama, nagsimulang magbadya ang dating nagmamay-ari sa kanya – ang naunang magmahal sa kanya. Babawiin na raw siya sa akin. Ibalik ko na raw siya.
Ilang mga araw at linggong nangulit ang susunod sa akin, ang bagong magmamahal at mag-aalaga sa kanya.
At ngayon, nalalapit na ang panahon upang kami’y maghiwalay na ng tuluyan. Ilang araw na lamang at magpapaalam na ako sa kanya.
Ngunit bago maging ganap ang katapusan ng aming pagsasama, muli kaming maglalakbay sa huling pagkakataon.
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
drama
i really don't know why i enjoy torturing myself so much.
just when i'm beginning to have fun and enjoy life a little, i seem to crave a bit of suffering. it is too unbelievable that my life could actually be happy and conflict-free?
or perhaps i feel the urge to remind myself of existing conflict so as not to lose myself to bliss too soon. once you let go completely, lord knows it's almost impossible to get yourself back.
ok, maybe impossible is too dramatic. very difficult, and very, very painful, maybe. but certainly not impossible.
still, who'd want to go through all of that again?
i'm not that much of a masochist.
just when i'm beginning to have fun and enjoy life a little, i seem to crave a bit of suffering. it is too unbelievable that my life could actually be happy and conflict-free?
or perhaps i feel the urge to remind myself of existing conflict so as not to lose myself to bliss too soon. once you let go completely, lord knows it's almost impossible to get yourself back.
ok, maybe impossible is too dramatic. very difficult, and very, very painful, maybe. but certainly not impossible.
still, who'd want to go through all of that again?
i'm not that much of a masochist.
Sunday, April 01, 2007
ano kaya'ng meron sa number four
again, ninenuk ko kay tatat.
FOUR JOBS I HAVE HAD
1. stock market monitor-er
2. production assistant
3. segment producer
4. associate producer
FOUR MOVIES I HAVE WATCHED OVER AND OVER
1. miss congeniality
2. little giants
3. school of rock
4. true lies
FOUR PLACES I HAVE LIVED:
1. malingap street, teacher's village
2. dona candida cmpd., caloocan city
3. abs-cbn (well, practically)
4. my dad's office
FOUR TV SHOWS I LIKE TO WATCH:
1. CSI
2. the office
3. south park
4. family guy
FOUR PLACES I HAVE BEEN ON VACATION:
1. boracay
2. barcelona, spain
3. sydney/melbourne/gold coast/brisbane, australia
4. bangkok, thailand
FOUR OF MY FAVORITE FOODS:
1. chocolate!!!
2. margherita pizza from sicilian
3. three cheese panini from deck deli
4. hash browns
i know four lang dapat, but i couldn't resist the urge to fantasize about food...
5. lemony stuff - lemon squares, lemon chicken, fish with lemon butter sauce...
6. sinigang (yung nuknukan ng asim)
7. tomatoes, in almost any way, shape or form
8. barbecue with rice and laing
9. isaw!
10. puto't dinuguan
11. french onion soup
12. lamb with mint jelly
13. ...ginugutom ko lang ata sarili ko...
FOUR PLACES I WOULD RATHER BE RIGHT NOW:
1. in bed, asleep...but not really
2. boracay! ilang araw nalang..!
3. out gimiking
4. somewhere na walang lamok
FOUR PEOPLE WHO WILL ANSWER THIS MEME
1. wala ata
FOUR JOBS I HAVE HAD
1. stock market monitor-er
2. production assistant
3. segment producer
4. associate producer
FOUR MOVIES I HAVE WATCHED OVER AND OVER
1. miss congeniality
2. little giants
3. school of rock
4. true lies
FOUR PLACES I HAVE LIVED:
1. malingap street, teacher's village
2. dona candida cmpd., caloocan city
3. abs-cbn (well, practically)
4. my dad's office
FOUR TV SHOWS I LIKE TO WATCH:
1. CSI
2. the office
3. south park
4. family guy
FOUR PLACES I HAVE BEEN ON VACATION:
1. boracay
2. barcelona, spain
3. sydney/melbourne/gold coast/brisbane, australia
4. bangkok, thailand
FOUR OF MY FAVORITE FOODS:
1. chocolate!!!
2. margherita pizza from sicilian
3. three cheese panini from deck deli
4. hash browns
i know four lang dapat, but i couldn't resist the urge to fantasize about food...
5. lemony stuff - lemon squares, lemon chicken, fish with lemon butter sauce...
6. sinigang (yung nuknukan ng asim)
7. tomatoes, in almost any way, shape or form
8. barbecue with rice and laing
9. isaw!
10. puto't dinuguan
11. french onion soup
12. lamb with mint jelly
13. ...ginugutom ko lang ata sarili ko...
FOUR PLACES I WOULD RATHER BE RIGHT NOW:
1. in bed, asleep...but not really
2. boracay! ilang araw nalang..!
3. out gimiking
4. somewhere na walang lamok
FOUR PEOPLE WHO WILL ANSWER THIS MEME
1. wala ata
a 1, a 4, a 6
hay salamat, gumana din..!
akala ko mabubwiset nalang ako kasi hindi ako makapag-post sa bibihirang oras na nasa mood ako na magparamdam. internet explorer lang pala ang kelangan.
kinupit ko 'to sa blog ni deepa. ewan ko kung weird lang ako, pero parang salungat yung unang part sa pangalawang part. at sobrang hindi ata akma yung huling part. ako, "in the center of a successful domestic unit"? "crave the devotion of offspring"?? "fostering the perfect family in a perfect home"??! ewan ko lang ha.
although my dad says, "always look out for number 1." (meaning me). so i guess tama siya dun. :)
anyway.
You entered: Justine Ann Francisco Javier
There are 25 letters in your name.
Those 25 letters total to 109
There are 10 vowels and 15 consonants in your name.
What your first name means:
Latin Female Feminine form of Justin: Just. Righteous. Fair.
English Female Just; upright. Feminine of Justin.
Your number is: 1
The characteristics of #1 are: Initiating action, pioneering, leading, independent, attaining, individual.
The expression or destiny for #1:
A number 1 Expression denotes the skilled executive with keen administrative capabilities. You must develop the capacity to be a fine leader, sales executive, or promoter. You have the tools to become an original person with a creative approach to problem solving, and a penchant for initiating action. Someone may have to follow behind you to handle the details, but you know how to get things going and make things happen. You have a good mind and the ability to use it for your advancement. Because of these factors, you have much potential for achievement and financial rewards. Frequently, this expression belongs to one running a business or striving to achieve a level of accomplishment on ones talents and efforts. You have little need for much supervision, preferring to act on your own with little restraint. You are both ambitious and determined. Self-confident and self-reliant must be yours, as you develop a strong unyielding will and the courage of your convictions.
Although you fear loneliness, you want to be left alone. You fear routine and being in a rut. You often jump the gun because you are afraid of being left behind.
The negative attributes of the 1 Expression are egotism and a self-centered approach to life. This is an aggressive number and if it is over-emphasized it is very hard to live with. You do not have to be overly aggressive to fulfill your destiny. The 1 has a natural instinct to dominate and to be the boss; adhering to the concept of being number One. Again, you do not have to dominate and destroy in order to lead and manage.
Your Soul Urge number is: 4
A Soul Urge number of 4 means:
With the Soul Urge or Motivation number of 4 you are likely to strive for a stable life. You tend to follow a rather orderly pattern and systematic approach in your endeavors. You have an inner desire to serve others in a methodical and diligent manner. You want to be in solid, conventional, and well-regulated activities, and you are somewhat disturbed by innovation and erratic or sudden changes. Excellent at organizing, systematizing, and managing, you have a way of establishing order and maintaining it. You are responsible, reliable and in the final analysis, practical. Highly analytical, you can see your way through all sorts of situations and generally have a clear understanding of the issues. You are a very honest, sincere, and conscientious individual.
The negative side of the 4 is rigid, stubborn and somewhat narrow-minded. There is a tendency to hide feelings, or to really not be aware of real feelings. Avoid being too rigid and stubborn in your thinking, and try to always see the big picture rather than becoming to involved with the detail. Don't be afraid to take a chance once in awhile.
Your Inner Dream number is: 6
An Inner Dream number of 6 means: You dream of guiding and fostering the perfect family in the perfect home. You crave the devotion from offspring and a loving spouse. You picture yourself in the center of a successful domestic unit.
akala ko mabubwiset nalang ako kasi hindi ako makapag-post sa bibihirang oras na nasa mood ako na magparamdam. internet explorer lang pala ang kelangan.
kinupit ko 'to sa blog ni deepa. ewan ko kung weird lang ako, pero parang salungat yung unang part sa pangalawang part. at sobrang hindi ata akma yung huling part. ako, "in the center of a successful domestic unit"? "crave the devotion of offspring"?? "fostering the perfect family in a perfect home"??! ewan ko lang ha.
although my dad says, "always look out for number 1." (meaning me). so i guess tama siya dun. :)
anyway.
You entered: Justine Ann Francisco Javier
There are 25 letters in your name.
Those 25 letters total to 109
There are 10 vowels and 15 consonants in your name.
What your first name means:
Latin Female Feminine form of Justin: Just. Righteous. Fair.
English Female Just; upright. Feminine of Justin.
Your number is: 1
The characteristics of #1 are: Initiating action, pioneering, leading, independent, attaining, individual.
The expression or destiny for #1:
A number 1 Expression denotes the skilled executive with keen administrative capabilities. You must develop the capacity to be a fine leader, sales executive, or promoter. You have the tools to become an original person with a creative approach to problem solving, and a penchant for initiating action. Someone may have to follow behind you to handle the details, but you know how to get things going and make things happen. You have a good mind and the ability to use it for your advancement. Because of these factors, you have much potential for achievement and financial rewards. Frequently, this expression belongs to one running a business or striving to achieve a level of accomplishment on ones talents and efforts. You have little need for much supervision, preferring to act on your own with little restraint. You are both ambitious and determined. Self-confident and self-reliant must be yours, as you develop a strong unyielding will and the courage of your convictions.
Although you fear loneliness, you want to be left alone. You fear routine and being in a rut. You often jump the gun because you are afraid of being left behind.
The negative attributes of the 1 Expression are egotism and a self-centered approach to life. This is an aggressive number and if it is over-emphasized it is very hard to live with. You do not have to be overly aggressive to fulfill your destiny. The 1 has a natural instinct to dominate and to be the boss; adhering to the concept of being number One. Again, you do not have to dominate and destroy in order to lead and manage.
Your Soul Urge number is: 4
A Soul Urge number of 4 means:
With the Soul Urge or Motivation number of 4 you are likely to strive for a stable life. You tend to follow a rather orderly pattern and systematic approach in your endeavors. You have an inner desire to serve others in a methodical and diligent manner. You want to be in solid, conventional, and well-regulated activities, and you are somewhat disturbed by innovation and erratic or sudden changes. Excellent at organizing, systematizing, and managing, you have a way of establishing order and maintaining it. You are responsible, reliable and in the final analysis, practical. Highly analytical, you can see your way through all sorts of situations and generally have a clear understanding of the issues. You are a very honest, sincere, and conscientious individual.
The negative side of the 4 is rigid, stubborn and somewhat narrow-minded. There is a tendency to hide feelings, or to really not be aware of real feelings. Avoid being too rigid and stubborn in your thinking, and try to always see the big picture rather than becoming to involved with the detail. Don't be afraid to take a chance once in awhile.
Your Inner Dream number is: 6
An Inner Dream number of 6 means: You dream of guiding and fostering the perfect family in the perfect home. You crave the devotion from offspring and a loving spouse. You picture yourself in the center of a successful domestic unit.
Saturday, March 17, 2007
bigay hilig
life could be so much simpler
if i would just choose for it to be so
but complications are too much fun to forego
life's too short to take things too slow
to just sit back and enjoy the show
take the plunge and go with the flow
go through the motions
move with your emotions
take what you want and give what you can
go through the motions
move with your emotions
nothing's for certain, life's too short to plan
some people say there's comfort in knowing
but do they know where they're really going
give me a reason to stop still and think
no time to process when i'm on the brink
of delirium and discovery
no turning back, lost the map to recovery
go through the motions
move with your emotions
take what you want and give what you can
go through the motions
move with your emotions
nothing's for certain, life's too short to plan
life's too short to plan
life's too short to plan
life could be so much simpler
if i would just choose for it to be so...
go through the motions
move with your emotions
take what you want and give what you can
go through the motions
move with your emotions
nothing's for certain, life's too short to plan
life's too short to plan
life's too short to plan
if i would just choose for it to be so
but complications are too much fun to forego
life's too short to take things too slow
to just sit back and enjoy the show
take the plunge and go with the flow
go through the motions
move with your emotions
take what you want and give what you can
go through the motions
move with your emotions
nothing's for certain, life's too short to plan
some people say there's comfort in knowing
but do they know where they're really going
give me a reason to stop still and think
no time to process when i'm on the brink
of delirium and discovery
no turning back, lost the map to recovery
go through the motions
move with your emotions
take what you want and give what you can
go through the motions
move with your emotions
nothing's for certain, life's too short to plan
life's too short to plan
life's too short to plan
life could be so much simpler
if i would just choose for it to be so...
go through the motions
move with your emotions
take what you want and give what you can
go through the motions
move with your emotions
nothing's for certain, life's too short to plan
life's too short to plan
life's too short to plan
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
here we are again
Arrived at work relatively early today, supposedly to go about routing some papers that I'll be needing over the next few days. The first hour at work started out fine: routed some memos, organized a mountain of junk on my table, made some calls, secured a venue for a meeting. Was still a little sleepy (what else is new), but managed to function all right. Felt slightly proud of the momentum I had thought that I had gained.
And then I stopped.
Stopped to rest, stopped to think, stopped to eat, to read, to sit, to do absolutely nothing.
Which brings me to where I am now: blogging away senselessly and regretting the grande cup of NYFD fries that i had with red hot chili peppers and honey mustard dip.
I feel like a ball in a pinball machine.
And then I stopped.
Stopped to rest, stopped to think, stopped to eat, to read, to sit, to do absolutely nothing.
Which brings me to where I am now: blogging away senselessly and regretting the grande cup of NYFD fries that i had with red hot chili peppers and honey mustard dip.
I feel like a ball in a pinball machine.
Monday, January 15, 2007
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
well kamusta naman
talk about sporadic blogging. this is only my second entry for this calendar year. and to think it's already december. (!)
wala lang, nasa bahay lang ako pero parang wish ko nasa bar ako somewhere umiinom at nakikibonding sa mga kaibigan. or rather, nagpapaka-pasyente sa mga kaibigang willing maging therapist sa gabing ito. kaso may 11am meeting pa kami bukas, at pinapangarap ko pa sana makapag-workout before that, at late na rin nang na-feel kong gusto ko palang uminom.
so eto ako ngayon, natitiyaga sa dalawang strong ice at dalawang lucky strike that's available to me at the moment. at nakikinig nalang ng paulit-ulit sa "i'm yours" ni jason mraz na kanta ng kapatid ko sa bago at una niyang jowa.
isa lang pala ito sa mga kanta niya para sa kanya. maraming awit na alay yun sa kanyang love godess/muse. matagal niya na kasing iniirog yun, mga tatlong taon na. awa ng diyos, sila na. at feeling ko happy naman sila. sabi nga nila, good things come to those who wait. isa pa, patience is a virtue.
kaso when it comes to some things wala talaga akong patience. absent ata ako nung araw na namamahagi si God nun. kaya eto, nasa boys are stupid mode nanaman ako. indefinitely, and possibly irrevocably.
pero sana hindi naman. ayoko naman patotohanan yung iniisip ng ibang tao na napaka-jaded at cynical (redundant?) ko na at the tender age of 24. oo nga, sige, hindi na "tender" ang age na 24, pero still, who wants to be jaded? i'd rather think that i'm just being realistic. and amybe a little bit hard. strong ice ito. call it a defense mechanism. allow me at least that. been through my own share of shiyet to get here din, diba?
pano ba yan, ubos na ang yosi. isang lagok nalang at ubos na rin ang beer. patapos na rin ang pang-sampu (pito? walo? ewan) na ulit ng kanta na naka-loop sa windows media player. hanggang dito nalang ata ang soliloquy na ito.
pero ang pakikipagsapalaran sa malawak na telenobela ng buhay... wala pa sa kalingkingan ng inggo, kampanerang kuba, marina, maging sino ka man o pinoy dream academy.
wish me luck.
wala lang, nasa bahay lang ako pero parang wish ko nasa bar ako somewhere umiinom at nakikibonding sa mga kaibigan. or rather, nagpapaka-pasyente sa mga kaibigang willing maging therapist sa gabing ito. kaso may 11am meeting pa kami bukas, at pinapangarap ko pa sana makapag-workout before that, at late na rin nang na-feel kong gusto ko palang uminom.
so eto ako ngayon, natitiyaga sa dalawang strong ice at dalawang lucky strike that's available to me at the moment. at nakikinig nalang ng paulit-ulit sa "i'm yours" ni jason mraz na kanta ng kapatid ko sa bago at una niyang jowa.
isa lang pala ito sa mga kanta niya para sa kanya. maraming awit na alay yun sa kanyang love godess/muse. matagal niya na kasing iniirog yun, mga tatlong taon na. awa ng diyos, sila na. at feeling ko happy naman sila. sabi nga nila, good things come to those who wait. isa pa, patience is a virtue.
kaso when it comes to some things wala talaga akong patience. absent ata ako nung araw na namamahagi si God nun. kaya eto, nasa boys are stupid mode nanaman ako. indefinitely, and possibly irrevocably.
pero sana hindi naman. ayoko naman patotohanan yung iniisip ng ibang tao na napaka-jaded at cynical (redundant?) ko na at the tender age of 24. oo nga, sige, hindi na "tender" ang age na 24, pero still, who wants to be jaded? i'd rather think that i'm just being realistic. and amybe a little bit hard. strong ice ito. call it a defense mechanism. allow me at least that. been through my own share of shiyet to get here din, diba?
pano ba yan, ubos na ang yosi. isang lagok nalang at ubos na rin ang beer. patapos na rin ang pang-sampu (pito? walo? ewan) na ulit ng kanta na naka-loop sa windows media player. hanggang dito nalang ata ang soliloquy na ito.
pero ang pakikipagsapalaran sa malawak na telenobela ng buhay... wala pa sa kalingkingan ng inggo, kampanerang kuba, marina, maging sino ka man o pinoy dream academy.
wish me luck.
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